Testing, Testing, 1, 2, 3

I missed writing.  A lot.  I have written a few things without publishing, but that isn’t the same.  I miss reading about everyone else’s lives and what’s going on, and I miss my friends in the blogosphere.  I didn’t stop writing because of what happened between my friend and I, but because I had to make some difficult decisions without everything being out in public.  I suppose I forgot how to do that. 

I have been so completely open here, and it started to be a bad thing.  I have decided to stick my toe back in and see how it feels.  Since my last post, things are a lot different.  WT and I have gone from couple to friends, and The Fireman and I from friends to couple.  I know, it’s weird.  I listened to my intuition for maybe the first time without letting it stew for a while first.  There were things that came up that I just couldn’t ignore, and my gut was telling me that no matter what, I was going to end up with The Fireman eventually. 

Breaking up with WT was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.  I love him, he is one of my best friends, but I just knew it would end badly, and I could either end it now or drag it out.  So, we are gingerly testing the friendship waters.  We have even had lunch like a couple of grown ups!  I know he is having a hard time, but I have to remember that I deserve to be happy, and I deserve the things that I want for my future.  This is most likely the last time I will talk about WT.  It doesn’t feel right, and I don’t want to hurt him further. 

Douche left for Afghanistan about a week and a half ago, and the boys seem to be handling it well.  They were upset on the day he left, but I think since they hadn’t seen him in such a long time anyway, it wasn’t too big a deal.  I can tell they try not to dwell on it.  Their step-mother has actually contacted me a couple of times with information, which shocked me, but made me glad that she’s trying to open up communication.

I’m on spring break right now from school, but have been busy catching up on my reading and doing my observations in classrooms.  This means spending time in Bekki’s class, which is FUN!  I am going to Chicago on Wednesday and will be having lunch with my aunt, possibly visiting the Art Institute and the Sears Tower.  I’m excited.  I love that city! 

I am doing well.  Very, very well.

12 Responses to “Testing, Testing, 1, 2, 3”

  1. 2 lola March 16, 2009 at 6:31 pm

    Well, that’s a lot of info to process! I’m glad you’re feeling better, though. Enjoy your trip!!!

  2. 3 Evil Twin's Wife March 16, 2009 at 9:32 pm

    Yay! Glad you checked in! 🙂

  3. 4 Ron March 16, 2009 at 10:11 pm

    Good to see you out in the blogosphere again. Have a great trip!

  4. 5 Penelope March 17, 2009 at 4:13 am

    Very good catching up with you last night and welcome back! :o)

  5. 6 teeni March 19, 2009 at 12:42 am

    Glad you didn’t stop writing. You’ve obviously been missed! Glad to know you are okay and that you sound happy. 🙂 Whatever guy you end up with doesn’t matter to us, just that you are treated well and are happy.

  6. 8 jessiee1112 March 21, 2009 at 10:06 pm

    time for an update. LOL 🙂

  7. 9 Becky March 22, 2009 at 7:32 pm

    Totally miss you and need your password 🙂

  8. 10 jessiee1112 March 22, 2009 at 7:59 pm

    ooh, password, please?

  9. 11 yvette March 23, 2009 at 12:30 pm

    Would love to get the password, too!

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