‘Tis The Day Before Christmas

And I have done nothing today. I’m still wearing pajamas at 1:30 in the afternoon. This is highly unusal for me, as I usually get dressed as soon as I wake up, before I even come out of my room. The boys are still in their jammies, as well.

The past few days, they haven’t been able to go outside and play because it’s been so bitterly cold, and now today it’s warmer, but raining, so no playing outdoors today, either. I always let them open one present on Christmas Eve, and since there’s not much to do, I went ahead and let them pick one to open. Little J opened his little digital camera and has been shooting away. Big J opened up a new mp3 player and is downloading his music right now. I’m catching up on your blogs, and pretty much trying to distract myself.

When E was here yesterday, I told her I really wanted to attend a church service tonight. We were always very active in our (Methodist) church growing up, and my favorite service all year was the candlelight one on Christmas Eve. She said that she and her husband might go to midnight mass, so I may tag along with them. I’m longing for the peace that you seem to find best in a sanctuary.

I didn’t get much sleep last night, and when I did there were bad dreams. I kept waking up and being totally awake, mind racing. I’m so tired. Tired of being sad, tired of being lonely, and most of all tired of being good to people who aren’t good back.

Down with 2008! Here’s wishing for a much better year to come for us all, with fingers crossed and hope in our hearts.

4 Responses to “‘Tis The Day Before Christmas”

  1. 1 eviltwinswife December 24, 2008 at 5:14 pm

    Have fun at your midnight service! I hope you find what you’re looking for.

  2. 2 Ron December 24, 2008 at 5:48 pm

    I hear you on the tired thing. Hope your midnight mass is fun. Have a wonderful Christmas!

  3. 3 DutchBitch December 25, 2008 at 3:01 am

    Yup, to.tal.ly feeling you on that last part… I am too tired of going out of my way to make things happen for people, for doing good onto others… and for fucking getting the short end of the stick myself all the time… Aside from meeting The Guy and falling in love, twothousandandeight can just fuck off…

    Big fat HUGZ from me to you, babe!

  4. 4 honeywine December 25, 2008 at 10:37 am

    Let’s ignore the ones who aren’t good back. Fuck ’em all! I loves you. *hug*

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