Not So Nervous Nellie

In just a couple of hours, I will be meeting my Fireman’s son for the first time.  He’s a little guy, only (almost) six, with a little boy voice and little boy toys.  Things my boys don’t have anymore, things that I miss.  I haven’t been nervous about meeting him until this morning, but now it’s getting that way a bit.

Perhaps its because I know that the Fireman has never introduced any girlfriends to the boy.  He has been very protective of his little guy, and it’s a very big deal, this whole meeting of the children thing.  We have made a commitment to each other, taken a leap of faith that the other person will be around not only for us, but for our sons as well.  I feel as though we are doing things the right way.  We got to know each other well before having a physical relationship, before introducing our children in, and we continue to learn about each other daily, growing the bond between us.

There are many things I would love to tell you about, all the beautiful, colorful hopes that have risen up like a rainbow after a thunderstorm.  I feel that I need to keep them close, though.  Who knows?  There may be some more protected posts before long.

 

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UPDATE:  Lunch went well, his son was absolutely adorable and very polite.  We decided we’re going to have a game night soon so he can show me Super Mario World.  I wasn’t nervous at all by the time I got there and saw my Fireman, and everything was fine.  I can’t wait to get to know this little guy better.